Topsy -Turvey

Just barely a couple of months had passed and my life doesn’t seem to do well the way I wanted. I am confused. My top turned so upside down - everything about me is not well organized because things happen in the wrong order. I am quick to believe false promises, easy to trust people, giving them importance when in fact, they are not worth it.

I am not firm in my decision. My emotions always contradict my judgment. I always seek for happiness, which is always temporary.  I’ve been so pathetic rather than practical. If only I could make a stand on what is right and necessary and not merely on preference.

But I don’t want to blame myself, not anybody... It just that life has been so complicated, so unfair sometimes, so deceiving.

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"Carry on... it’s never too late to put things in order and start anew."

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Stupid Yellow

We are advised to wear yellow shirt today (or any shirt with touch of yellow) in commemoration of the 25^th Anniversary of People Power Revolution (also known as the EDSA Revolution and the Philippine Revolution of 1986).

Night before, I choose from at least six or seven yellow shirts (all of different shades). I choose the one that I am comfortable wearing, a simple casual shirts.

At the office – I was told that I am not wearing yellow. I just ignore the comment coz I know I am wearing the right color.

After a while, three others commented the same. They said that I’m wearing orange instead of yellow.

WHAT??? Orange???…

Suddenly I’m confused… Are they color blind or Am I color blind??? It’s yellow, I know it is.. I confidently believe it is..

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A different shades of yellow… a STUPID YELLOW or WHATEVER?!?. 

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I don't know

Starring blankly ahead, wandering what to do.

My thoughts were blocked by this entire crazy thing

Oh why did it happen, who am I to blame

I know I did the right things, but I didn’t intend to end this way.

It was your faults not mine…

You did it once, you did it twice

But you didn’t hear from me,

‘Cause I don’t want to say things that can hurt either of us

You took my silence for granted

Thinking what you did was alright

And that I don’t mind anything at all

You did it again the nth times

And this time you piss me off

I give you the worst that you deserved

And you just give a strong face.

You seem so proud, unmindful of your wrong

And we didn’t talked for very long

All that I’m waiting is for you to say you’re sorry,

Is it the hardest thing for you to do???

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I have already forgiven you in my heart

What’s done is done…

And if you have the courage to embrace me back

I will welcome you with both hands…

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Sleeping Pills

I wake up late this morning. It must have been caused by the sleeping pills I took last night.  

It’s the middle of the night and I keep on starring at the ceiling, counting sheeps so I could fall asleep. I anxiously look at the clock again and it’s almost midnight. I was thinking of taking a double dose of the sleeping pills so I could effortlessly fall asleep, but I took 5mg instead. I went back to bed and ZZzzzzzzzZZZZzz..

Time Flies

Why?

Why?

Why do I feel this way?

I can’t move…

I can’t breath…

My sanity’s losing me.

I am bored…

I am tired…

I am dying inside.

I need space…

I need change…

Does anyone care?

I’ve done it once…

I’ve done it all

Don’t wanna do it no more.

I’ve given everything..

My heart…

My life…

My soul.

And now…

I’m already broke..

I’ve nothing to call my own…

I can’t smile, I can’t laugh…

I am wasted…

I am broken, frozen.

I am nobody.

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After awhile I realize

that time flies

The best thing that I can do now is

Take whatever comes…

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Getaway

Looking forward for a week long vacation
someplace where I can find peacefulness and tranquility...

Somewhere down south..
In a place where there's lot of beautiful things to explore...
In a place that offers a never ending  adventure...

In a place untouched..
where breeziness fills the air..
where I can feel comfort and cheer..

In any time soon.. I will be there..


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Monay

Nakakaramdam na ako ng hilo.

Ikaw ba naman ang hindi kumain ng almusal

Magtatanghalian na ay wala paring laman ang tiyan

Mabuti nalang may mabuting puso

Inalok ako ng dala niyang monay

Hindi naman ako maselan gaya ng iba

na hindi kumakain ng monay ng walang palaman

basta ba may lasa at hindi parang papel na hindi mangata

at kinakailangan mo pang uminom ng tubig malunok lang.

Sabi niya matamis daw

Kaya go, kumuha ako ng isa

Kaagad kong kinagat at nginuya

Sabi ko nga hindi ako maselan

Pero hindi ko napigilan, agad kong iniluwa

Ewan ko ba, iba siguro ang hinahanap ng panlasa ko

Mag kaganon man

Salamat sa MONAY.

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Panaginip o Bangungot?

Ito na siguro ang isa sa mahimbing kong pagtulog matapos ang halos isang linggong pakikipagbuno sa gabi-gabing pag-atake ng sinus con allergic rhinitis na kinakatakutan kong maging isang sintomas ng astma (huwag naman sana). 

Sa labis kong pagkakahimbing, nagising ako na nagmamadaling tinutungo ang liwasang bayan malapit na kasing magsimula ang isang programa na gusto kong masaksihan. Nagsisimula na ito ng marating ko ang liwasan. Nagpalinga-linga ako upang maghanap ng kakilala, sa bandang unahan ay may napansin akong pamilyar na mukha, Ah si Ervic.. Sa kanyang gawing likuran ay may bakanteng upuan. Nilapitan ko siya at binati pero taliwas sa aking inaasahan ako’y kanyang sinimangutan.  “Bahala ka sa buhay mo”, ang nasabi ko na lang sa isip ko.

Lumipas pa ang ilang saglit habang halos nasa kalagitnaan pa lang ang palatuntunan ay unti-unti na ring nag sisialisan ang mga manonood. Samantalang ang ilan ay nakatulog na sa kanilang kinauupuan. Pati ang nag susupladong si Ervic ay naidlip na rin. 

Wala na akong balak pang tapusin ang palabas, gusto ko na rin umalis pero bago pa ako nakatayo ay nilingon ako ni Ervic at may kung anong ibinubulong. Bulong na kahit na sinong matalas ang pandinig ay hindi maiintindihan. Bulong na pawang hangin at daing lang ang lumalabas.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at sa halip ay tumayo ako upang tuluyan nang umalis. Subalit mabilis na nakawakan niya ang aking kamay upang ako’y pigilan na naging sanhi ng pagkawalang balanse ng aking katawan.  Pahiga siyang natumba na kapwa magkadikit ang aming mga katawan.

Gusto kong tumayo pero parang naubos ang lahat ng aking lakas sa bigat ng pagbagsak niya sa akin. Noon ko lang naamo’y  ang alak sa kanyang hininga. Itinutulak ko siyang patayo pero mabigat talaga siya.

Nagulat nalang ako sa sunod niyang ginawa. Walang pasubaling hinalikan niya ang aking mga labi. Isang bagay na kahit na minsan ay hindi ko inisip na mangyayari. Napatingin ako sa aming paligid, may manaka-naka pa rin mga manonood sa palatuntunan, subalit parang hindi nila kami napapansin.

Mabilis ang sumunod na pangyayari. Wala na ang suot niyang guhitang polo shirt. Ang kanyang suot na khaki short ay bukas na rin. May isang matigas na bagay na pilit niyang ikinikiskis sa ibabang bahagi ng aking katawan.

Hindi ko siya magawang pigilan. Naganap ang ninanais niyang mangyari…

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata upang magtago sa kahihiyan.  Hindi ko alam kung paano ako tatayo ng hindi pagtitinginan ng mga taong naroon…

Ah, bahala na ang tangi kong nasabi. Minulat ko ang aking mga mata at ako’y binabangungot lang pala sa aking panaginip.. 

MAHRLA

Hindi madaling sabihin paalam
Lalo pa at gusto mong manatili mag pakailanman

Kaya kung kailangan mong lumisan,
Mahal, ikaw’y hindi pipigilan

Dahil batid ng puso kong ikaw’y muling magbabalik

At muli kang yayakapin ng mahigpit sa aking mga bisig..

Gaya ng mga bituin ay nagniningning
Isang araw ay makikita mo ako muli
Isa sa mga gabing ito,
Muli kong marinig ang malamyos mong tinig
At sasabing kung gaano mo ako naulila…

-mahrla-

Balentyn

Valentine's Day is past approaching, are you still single?
Well don't be sad, don't be blue, coz here a quick and easy tea for you....

LOVE POTION TEA

1 pinch of rosemary
2 teaspoons of black tea
3 pinches thyme
3 pinches nutmeg
3 fresh mint leaves
6 fresh rose petals
6 lemon leaves
3 cups pure spring water
Sugar
Honey

To make another person fall in love with you, brew this tea on a Friday during a waxing moon (moving from empty to full).
Place all ingredients in an earthenware or copper tea kettle. Boil three cups of pure spring water and add to the kettle. Sweeten with sugar and honey, if desired.

Before drinking, recite this rhyme:

BY LIGHT OF MOON WAXING
I BREW THIS TEA
TO MAKE [lover's name] DESIRE ME.


Drink some of the tea and say:
GODDESS OF LOVE
HEAR NOW MY PLEA
LET [lover's name] DESIRE ME!
SO MOTE IT BE
SO MOTE IT BE

On the following Friday, brew another pot of the love potion tea and give some to the person you want to love you. He or she will soon begin to fall in love with you.

All in fun - but good luck!!!

 

SINCE BIRTH

Applicant:        Good Morning po! Dito po ba kumukuha ng form sa Iskolar?

Frontliner:        Taga-saan ka?

Applicant:        Taga-Carmona po.

Frontliner:        Matagal ka na ba naninirahan dito sa Carmona?

MGA ILANG TAON NA?

(the frontliner was expecting to hear: 15 to ++ years of residency or less than 15 years as an answer kasi nga naman ang tanong ay ilang taon na)

Applicant:        SINCE BIRTH po.

                        (Haler naman, as if the frontliner knows kung kailan siya ipinanganak.

May iba kasi na isinasagot ito dahil ito ang pinaka-safe na answer .

Pero common sense din naman dahil halos lahat ng applicants ay mga fouth-year high school students kaya pag sinabi nilang SINCE BIRTH, malamang nasa braket sila na 15-16 years)

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Hindi kasi maiwasan na may mga nanloloko para lang makakuha ng form. Gaya nito.

Frontliner:        Mga ilang taon na kayo dito naninirahan sa Carmona?

Applicant:        SINCE BIRTH po.

Frontliner:        Ilang taon nga?

Applicant:        Dito na po kasi siya nag kinder eh. (ang sagot ng magulang)

Frontliner:        Kaya nga po mga ilang taon na?

Applicant:        16 years old na po siya eh (ang sagot uli ng magulang)

Frontliner:        Dito po ba siya ipinangak?

Applicant:        Hindi po, pero iskolar na po yan ni mayor eh.

Frontliner:        Ilan taon na nga po?

Applicant:        Mga dalawang taon na po siya nang lumipat kami dito.

Frontliner:        So, ibig sabihin po nasa 14 years palang kayo dito naninirahan.
                   

                        (16 years less 2 years.... 

                          At balak pang umapila ng magulang ng applikante…

                         KAMUSTA NAMAN YON...)

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Perdido El Hilo

I was attempting to open my Blog Account this morning but I couldn't get in.

O why, o why, what's the problem????

Username error??? Password error???

Re-try...

Re-try again...

Re-try again for the third times...

Google help, please send my account info?!?!?

Perdido El Hilo... Sobra akong nahilo, pati ako nagulo.

Nakalimutan ko i-nedit ko pala ang account ko..

Eh Kasi naman, kung minsan pasaway....

Bow.

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I Fell In Love with Herbie (?)

Do you know Herbie?

Well he’s the free-wheeling Volkswagen Bug with a mind of its own.

 I just met Herbie yesterday or should I say I just watched the movie Herbie: Fully Loaded yesterday - a 2005 family-oriented Walt Disney Film. It stars Lindsay Lohan as the youngest member of an automobile-racing family who puts the car through its paces on the road to becoming a NASCAR competitor.

How I wish I could drive my own Coooool Bug someday...

Ohana

Just finished watching the Disney Movie Lilo and Stitch (again..).. The message of the movie was about Ohana and the extended Hawaiian families

At the beginning of the movie Lilo's 'ohana consists of herself and her sister, Nani. (Their parents had died in a car accident.) Gradually Stitch becomes the third member of their little "broken" family. By the time the movie ends, and in scenes from events which take place after the film, we see that their new 'ohana has added quite a few new members including Nani's boyfriend David, the social worker Cobra Bubbles and even the two aliens who were originally sent to capture Stitch, his creator Jumba and sociologist Pleakley.

As Lilo, in her own eloquent way says, "'Ohana means family. Family means no one is left behind - or forgotten."

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A few lines from the movie:

Lilo: It was raining, and they went for a drive. What happened to yours? I hear you cry at night. Do you dream about them? I know that's why you wreck things, and push me.

Stitch: This is my family. I found it, all on my own. Is little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good.

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Sequedad (i odio)

Mi piel está seca desde hace casi dos semanas y que me irrita tanto ...

He intentado utilizar Johnson Baby Oil con Vitamina E y Aloe Vera y la loción de bebé La leche también con la vitamina A y E con leche doble de proteínas para ayudar a nutrir la piel (alternativamente después de cada baño). Alivia la sequedad sin embargo, pero mi piel se siente seca de nuevo en la tarde ...

Mi amigo me dijo que mi piel no es seca en la capa externa de la epidermis, pero dentro de mi .. Se recomienda que debe tomar mucho líquido y comer por lo menos una porción de frutas y verduras en cada comida .. y hacer ejercicio regularmente para ayudar regula la circulación de mi inundaciones ...


Adiós Sequedad ...

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Publish Post

I Write Like.... (???)

I saw this link in one of the blog I follow, got curious kaya I try..  I copy-paste a line or two of my blog post (written in English) and after their statistical analysis ito ang lumabas..

Hindi ko siya kilala... (????)

I write like
Chuck Palahniuk

I Write Like by Mémoires, journal software. Analyze your writing!

I try again... This time I copy-paste a few paragraphs (written in tagalog) from my blog post at eto naman ang lumabas..

I write like
J. K. Rowling

I Write Like by Mémoires, journal software. Analyze your writing!

Huh.. magkaiba ang results (as i expected!). Anyways, try n'yo rin by clicking on the Badge...

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