HEAVEN's CRY

When I came into your life, you told me you would love me and never gonna hurt me… I was your best friend, your love, your everything.

Until one day..  you said, “ I’m sick, I’m afraid I can’t stay with you any longer…” I refused to believe you at first but when I saw those tears fell down your cheeks… It spells out the truth about how you really feel inside… I was deeply hurt, yeah I know… you were hurt too… you can't even look straight into my eyes when you said, “it was too late!”  my life has changed at that very moment… I just found myself on bended knees yelling… why???? I was down completely, but I had to be strong for you… at my worst… you were there…

Until the day has come for us to say goodbye… I knew it, but I just can’t accept it… If only I knew that was the last time, I should have held you and never let go…

The kiss, whisper and embrace… it was the last… I can feel your arms falling down slowly, I know you’re gone… We always thought our love was enough for us to last… it was a sad ending… its God’s will…

Those six long years, it’s all gone now… how can I forget? How can I start over once again…? 

I’m sorry if you see my life falling apart… I know I can’t get you back and I won’t be seeing you for the rest of my life…

The sadness of the nights brings back the day we had, the time you let go of me… and the moment that I surrendered you… even silence reminds me of all the sorrow… the pain… and my hopelessness… 

Let me suffer in silence, till I get over you slowly. I can let you go… and I will be ME once again… I will be keeping my promise. I will move on…. 

But you will always be a part of me… Hear me say this one last time, “I have found the essence of my life, I have discovered a world that’s beautiful, because of you…”

My love…  My misery...  I’m letting go of you now… It’s time to set myself free… This is the hardest thing I will do, 'coz I still love you… and this love… this is all I have…

(Excerpt from the video of HOW TO HEAL A BROKEN HEART?)

DEMIGOD WINZTON 4: Will Someone Ever Care for Me?

Complexities of life has always left me with no choice - even if how hard i try to believe things are okay, things still seem to go its way to just hurt me.

But how do we really say we care and when do we care? Do we really care at all? or just making ourselves think (without feeling we care) so as to satisfy our own selves of feeling that we do care.

Is caring really have to be mutual or should we care for oneself only or share it with someone, some people or to the rest of the world.?

It seems to me that I have been caring much and almost forgetting the risk of getting hurt all over again. I guess that's caring... giving without thinking of anything in return... BUT???

"will someone ever care for 
me,too?..."

@raremomentsinlife

Time to Let GO

I WANNA TELL YOU I FEEL HUNG UP AND I DON'T KNOW WHY...

I don’t see the smile you use to give to me
I don’t see the sad look in your eyes
I don’t know why it’s happening to us
I’m loosing you forever so fast

It’s hard to keep the pieces of a broken heart
There’s no mending
There’s no brand new start
Maybe I just have to face the truth
I’m losing you and there’s nothing I can do

[Chorus]
Maybe it’s time to let go
It’s time to move on
Maybe i’ts time to forget what we have shared
I just have to learn getting over all the days
We used to say
I love you, I love you

Tomorrow is a lonely day that I must face
To try and get back on my feet would be a waste
For how can I truly live without your love?
A life without you is not a life at all

[repeat Chorus]

There are many questions (many questions)
Left in my mind
I can’t find the answers why you’re mine
For I know
It is true
it is time to let go

[repeat Chorus]

DEMIGOD WINZTON 3: A Good Friend is just a FRIEND!

"...and yes we will remain good friends
as long as I live"

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The question has been pondered what does it mean to be just good friend

A Good Friend is:

SOMEONE who is there for you when you need a compassionate ears to listen to some of your problems…

SOMEONE who cares about the things that happen in your life…

SOMEONE who doesn’t  want romance just companionship..

SOMEONE who doesn’t make excuses for not coming to your special event…

SOMEONE you can lean upon when the cares of the world seem to be piling up against you...

SOMEONE who is there when you are in need of a kind shoulders to cry on and…

SOMEONE who laughs at your jokes… and
SOMEONE WHO...!?!?!?

Being just GOOD FRIENDS can be simply sharing a relationship with SOMEONE who is simply that, a GOOD FRIEND.

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... Well, I'm tired of pretending  but I'm terrified of it ending. I know if not for you there's nothing I could do to ever let it end. And I know you feel the same way, cause you told me drunk on your birthday and as you pulled to me you whispered in my ear, "Don't ever let it end"

We can laugh as we both pretend...  that we're just GOOD FRIENDS!

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DEMIGOD WINZTON 2: The Right Kind of Wrong

We’re all seeking for that special person who is right for us. But if you’re just like me and you’ve been through enough relationships, maybe you too, begin to suspect that may be there’s no right person… just different flavors of wrong.

Just like the past days and nights. I can’t sleep. Looking back at all the aches I’ve been through. Can’t help but ask myself, Am I the one causing this much pain I am feeling now? Should I blame myself for all this? Is choosing the wrong person to love the only thing I’m good at?

Yeah, I must admit, maybe I was wrong on some parts and I seek out for someone who is wrong in some complementary way. It takes a lot a living to grow fully into your own wrongness.

And maybe it isn’t until I finally run up against my deepest demons and embrace my inner corpse – the ones that make me truly who I am. That I am ready to find a lifelong mate. That I am ready to find the wrong person..

But not just any wrong person:

The right wrong person—someone I would lovingly gaze upon and think, “Hey, this is the problem I want to have”. The problem I’ll be more than happy to have every day of my life.

I can’t wait for that day. That I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way..

Or maybe, I have found YOU.

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